Calvin Miller is the inspiration author again today. As I read today's entry I decided to officially put his name on my must-read list of authors.
John 13:15) "For I have given you an example, that you should do as I have done to you."
Today's study looks at the word character. To help myself understand more clearly I looked up the word in the dictionary. Here is what it said.
Character- the qualities that form a person's nature, moral quality, reputation
I do not believe I was born with character. I was born with a sin nature and a genetic makeup. My character was not built in the easy, smooth times. "Character comes gradually in the process of allowing God to make us servants," Calvin Miller. The process is not easy. Mr. Miller says we beg God to cover the hammer with felt. This hammer pounds the anvil...and it hurts.
"And sometimes it is the very people we are called to serve who hold in their ungrateful lives the pain that breaks our spirits and crushes beneath alienation and aloneness," Calvin Miller. I absolutely love this quote! A wife comes to mind, a woman who spent a great deal of her life honoring and serving her husband. Really without her there is no telling where he would have been. She obeyed God by showing him honor and serving him in a Godly manner. All along he was hiding a plethora of sin. The times she needed him most he was not there. He showed her no respect. His ungratefulness smacked her in the face. Yet she served God by continuing to handle the situation with a Spirit-lead grace. He continues to do everything in his power to completely destroy her in every way possible. God rewards those who serve Him and by serving the unlovable she served Him. This woman has more character in her pinkie than most have in their whole bodies and I guarantee it grew greatly in her service. There is a day coming soon where God will shed amazing freedom upon her and offer to her a new start.
As I read today's entry by Calvin Miller I couldn't help but think of this very special woman and how the hammer has chiseled out an even more incredible character. Jesus says the example is set in John 13:15. Jesus is our ultimate example. I am so blessed to know this woman and have learned so much from her. She also is an example to me.
Monday, January 30, 2012
Sunday, January 29, 2012
More Than the Obvious
Today's study is inspired by Augustine. If you are not familiar with Augustine, I will share some interesting facts about him. He was born in 354 and died in 430 in present-day Algeria. He was very influential in the development of western Christianity. Some interesting theories that came from Augustine are original sin, Filioque Clause, and the concept of the Church being the City of God. I am not doing Augustine justice by summarizing his teachings as much as I have. One could read for hours on Augustine!
It is Day 61 in my study. The study verse is brought to us by the King James Version.
John 13:14-15) If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; ye also ought to wash one another's feet. For I have given you and example, that ye should do as I have done to you.
Jesus washed the Disciple's feet and they were already clean so what does this mean for me (or all believer's)? We have already covered the principle of serving others. What other lessons are included in the words of Jesus? In typical fashion, His words are multi-faceted. I think the other lessons are also important.
Before you get bored about reading yet another study based on the washing of feet let's see what else we can learn from the above verse. Besides the lesson in foot washing I think it is important to think about living a life full of introspection. He was teaching the Disciple's to look into their own lives to see where sin lived in them. Because we are human we sin. Believers are included in this. Personally, I do not believe I get through a day without sinning. Even after initial salvation we have to always look inside ourselves to see the rottenness. Conversion and repentance are a vital element to the Christian journey. We are not exempt from sin and its consequences. He is teaching His men that they still need cleansing.
Psalms 32:5) Then I confessed my sins to you; I did not conceal my wrongdoings. I decided to confess them to You, and You forgave all my sins.
It is important to remember who said the above words. It was King David. The second verse of the famous song "Hallelujah" speaks of King David. "Your faith was strong but you needed proof. You saw her bathing on the roof. Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you...," "Hallelujah" written by Leonard Cohen. King David was a man after God's own heart. David loved God, but knew he still needed to repent.
Besides the lesson of service and being quick to repentance, I believe Jesus is teaching about forgiveness in John 13:14-15. He intercedes between myself and God. Actually, Jesus is the bridge between myself and God the Father. The muck I mentioned a few days ago is what the Bridge goes over. When Jesus washed the men's feet he is saying, "I forgive you. Now go and forgive others." There are many reason forgiveness is difficult. Some hurts are just so deep. True forgiveness comes from the Holy Spirit.
One of my favorite Bible teachers (and authors) is Joyce Meyer. She was sexually abused by her father for fifteen years. He used to take her to the graveyards and rape her. He did this so if someone noticed the stopped car they would assume they were visiting a grave site. Joyce found Jesus Christ at age nine. She told her mother she was being raped by her father and her mother did not believe her. The abuse began approximately at age three. Eleven years later her mother walked in as a rape was occurring. She backed away, returned hours later, and pretended nothing happened. Can you even imagine?! Joyce thought surely her mother would do something to stop the abuse, but she was wrong. The abuse continued till Joyce was eighteen when she moved out. Many years later she moved her aging parents close to her so she could care for them. He eventually became a believer in Jesus Christ. He and Joyce prayed the Sinner's Prayer together and she baptized him soon after.
Most of us never have to experience this level of evil. We all get our feelings hurt and experience many other levels and types of hurts. Forgiveness is a choice. Joyce's journey of forgiveness is nothing short of awe-inspiring. Pride gets in the way of forgiveness. Any amount of unforgiveness places a root of bitterness in our hearts...from big hurts to small. Many times the person who hurt us doesn't know they hurt us, doesn't care, or doesn't know how badly. Joyce went to her father twice and told him she forgave him. He asked why because he did not think he did anything wrong. Forgiveness offers freedom.
Ephesians 4:31-32) Get rid of all bitterness, passion, and anger. No more shouting or insults, no more hateful feelings of any sort. Instead, be kind and tender-hearted to one another, and forgive one another, as God has forgiven you through Christ.
As you can see, when we study God's word in detail we are blessed with Spirit-guided insight. I think it is amazing how I can read a verse one day and get one thing out of it then the next day read the same verse and get something completely different out of it. I would encourage you to study God's Word.
It is Day 61 in my study. The study verse is brought to us by the King James Version.
John 13:14-15) If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; ye also ought to wash one another's feet. For I have given you and example, that ye should do as I have done to you.
Jesus washed the Disciple's feet and they were already clean so what does this mean for me (or all believer's)? We have already covered the principle of serving others. What other lessons are included in the words of Jesus? In typical fashion, His words are multi-faceted. I think the other lessons are also important.
Before you get bored about reading yet another study based on the washing of feet let's see what else we can learn from the above verse. Besides the lesson in foot washing I think it is important to think about living a life full of introspection. He was teaching the Disciple's to look into their own lives to see where sin lived in them. Because we are human we sin. Believers are included in this. Personally, I do not believe I get through a day without sinning. Even after initial salvation we have to always look inside ourselves to see the rottenness. Conversion and repentance are a vital element to the Christian journey. We are not exempt from sin and its consequences. He is teaching His men that they still need cleansing.
Psalms 32:5) Then I confessed my sins to you; I did not conceal my wrongdoings. I decided to confess them to You, and You forgave all my sins.
It is important to remember who said the above words. It was King David. The second verse of the famous song "Hallelujah" speaks of King David. "Your faith was strong but you needed proof. You saw her bathing on the roof. Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you...," "Hallelujah" written by Leonard Cohen. King David was a man after God's own heart. David loved God, but knew he still needed to repent.
Besides the lesson of service and being quick to repentance, I believe Jesus is teaching about forgiveness in John 13:14-15. He intercedes between myself and God. Actually, Jesus is the bridge between myself and God the Father. The muck I mentioned a few days ago is what the Bridge goes over. When Jesus washed the men's feet he is saying, "I forgive you. Now go and forgive others." There are many reason forgiveness is difficult. Some hurts are just so deep. True forgiveness comes from the Holy Spirit.
One of my favorite Bible teachers (and authors) is Joyce Meyer. She was sexually abused by her father for fifteen years. He used to take her to the graveyards and rape her. He did this so if someone noticed the stopped car they would assume they were visiting a grave site. Joyce found Jesus Christ at age nine. She told her mother she was being raped by her father and her mother did not believe her. The abuse began approximately at age three. Eleven years later her mother walked in as a rape was occurring. She backed away, returned hours later, and pretended nothing happened. Can you even imagine?! Joyce thought surely her mother would do something to stop the abuse, but she was wrong. The abuse continued till Joyce was eighteen when she moved out. Many years later she moved her aging parents close to her so she could care for them. He eventually became a believer in Jesus Christ. He and Joyce prayed the Sinner's Prayer together and she baptized him soon after.
Most of us never have to experience this level of evil. We all get our feelings hurt and experience many other levels and types of hurts. Forgiveness is a choice. Joyce's journey of forgiveness is nothing short of awe-inspiring. Pride gets in the way of forgiveness. Any amount of unforgiveness places a root of bitterness in our hearts...from big hurts to small. Many times the person who hurt us doesn't know they hurt us, doesn't care, or doesn't know how badly. Joyce went to her father twice and told him she forgave him. He asked why because he did not think he did anything wrong. Forgiveness offers freedom.
Ephesians 4:31-32) Get rid of all bitterness, passion, and anger. No more shouting or insults, no more hateful feelings of any sort. Instead, be kind and tender-hearted to one another, and forgive one another, as God has forgiven you through Christ.
As you can see, when we study God's word in detail we are blessed with Spirit-guided insight. I think it is amazing how I can read a verse one day and get one thing out of it then the next day read the same verse and get something completely different out of it. I would encourage you to study God's Word.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Pride, Busyness and Being Judgmental
I am on Day 60 of my study and today's study is inspired by the author Calvin Miller. I had never heard of him until now. He is an author, pastor, speaker and teacher. He has written 30-some books and his articles have been featured in publications such as Christianity Today. He was saved when he was a boy of nine years old at a Pentecostal tent revival in Oklahoma in the later part of the 1940's. I will have to keep him in mind when searching for my next book. It might be awhile because I am currently reading three books and have a big stack on my shelf just waiting for me!
The study verse for today is found in John. Please read on!
John 13:14) "Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash another's feet."
There are three attitudes that block my service of God's people. Maybe one or all of them apply to you too.
1. Pride- "I am too good to do that."
2. Busyness- "There is no time to serve others because I can hardly keep up with my own life."
3. Being Judgmental- "They probably made poor choices to get themselves into such a mess."
I need to have humility to serve others. Unfortunately, this does not come natural to me (or anyone else either). We get true humility only by being humiliated. Pride and humility are opposite. Let's take a minute to see what the dictionary has to say about each of these words. Dictionary.com is great!
Pride- a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc.
Humility- modest opinion or estimate of one's own importance, rank, etc.
Pride keeps me from many blessings in life. It can keep me from reaching out to others in friendship, showing my true self, or serving people. Back in Cincinnati we attended a church named RiverTree. I decided it was time to get involved and serve at church in some manner. I offered to come in and clean once a month. It was not a huge commitment, but they only needed me once a month so I agreed. The children's area usually needed vacuumed and tidied up. This worked out perfectly because 1. I wanted to use my new Dyson any chance I got and 2. Eli loved playing with all the toys while I cleaned. On one of my first visits I was asked if I would also clean the bathrooms. Of course I smiled and said, "sure!" On the inside I said, "yuck, really?!" As I scrubbed toilets I would be lying if I said my pride was not affected a little. The Holy Spirit took hold of me and I knew my attitude had to change. Even scrubbing toilets can be done to the glory of God!
Mark 9:35) Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said, "If anyone wants to be first, he must be the very last, and the servant of all."
Proverbs 11:2) When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.
Proverbs 16:18-19) Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall. Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed than to share plunder with the proud.
Proverbs 18:12) Before his downfall a man's heart is proud, but humility comes before honor.
1 Corinthians 10:31) So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.
Ah busyness! Honestly, I am not too busy and I am okay with this. Dave and I love calmness and choose to lead a pretty slow-paced life. This works out well because I usually feel like I have not slept in days! Aaaaanywho, on to my point. There have been times when we have been very busy though. Even though we were busy doing good things we were not doing the best things. The best things are found when we look outside ourselves and our agenda. I make time for priorities. We planned to stay in Georgia for Thanksgiving and Christmas this year. After a crazy year we thought a nice holiday at home would be ideal. Dave even took time off work at Thanksgiving and Christmas! Before Thanksgiving, I told Dave since we had no plans for the holidays we should go to the Golden Harvest Food Bank and serve Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner. He was all for it! So do you want to know how it turned out? Time got away. WE enjoyed OURSELVES at home, WE ate OUR favorite foods, watched OUR favorite shows, opened lots of gifts to US...well, we focused on ourselves. Even in our non-busyness we did not serve at that time. So if you think when you are less busy you will serve, it probably will not happen then either.
Matthew 6:33) But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
Luke 10:38-42) Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet and listened to his teaching. But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me.” But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.” *The word 'serve' here can be thought of as busyness.
I'm three for three so far because I can also be judgmental! One Sunday Pastor Bobby gave everyone in church either $1, 5, 10, or 20 bills to give away. We explained this to Eli and he knew we had $5 to spend on someone else, someone we did not know. The next week we were out shopping and as we pulled up to a red light we noticed a homeless man standing on the corner holding a sign. Eli inquired to why the man was standing there. I explained he was asking for money because he had no house and was probably very hungry. Eli immediately said, "let's give him our 'monies' Mommy! He could buy a house!" My heart broke over Eli's innocence AND how my first thought was I wondered what bad decisions that man made to get him to where he was. I am just being honest here! Who am I to judge that man?! How many times have I not served another because I have deemed them unworthy?
Matthew 7:2) For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you.
John 8:7) And as they continued to ask him, he stood up and said to them, “Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her.”
John 7:24) Do not judge by appearances, but judge with right judgment.”
Jesus is clear in John 13:14 as to what we should be doing. He tells us to serve others because He first served us.
The study verse for today is found in John. Please read on!
John 13:14) "Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash another's feet."
There are three attitudes that block my service of God's people. Maybe one or all of them apply to you too.
1. Pride- "I am too good to do that."
2. Busyness- "There is no time to serve others because I can hardly keep up with my own life."
3. Being Judgmental- "They probably made poor choices to get themselves into such a mess."
I need to have humility to serve others. Unfortunately, this does not come natural to me (or anyone else either). We get true humility only by being humiliated. Pride and humility are opposite. Let's take a minute to see what the dictionary has to say about each of these words. Dictionary.com is great!
Pride- a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc.
Humility- modest opinion or estimate of one's own importance, rank, etc.
Pride keeps me from many blessings in life. It can keep me from reaching out to others in friendship, showing my true self, or serving people. Back in Cincinnati we attended a church named RiverTree. I decided it was time to get involved and serve at church in some manner. I offered to come in and clean once a month. It was not a huge commitment, but they only needed me once a month so I agreed. The children's area usually needed vacuumed and tidied up. This worked out perfectly because 1. I wanted to use my new Dyson any chance I got and 2. Eli loved playing with all the toys while I cleaned. On one of my first visits I was asked if I would also clean the bathrooms. Of course I smiled and said, "sure!" On the inside I said, "yuck, really?!" As I scrubbed toilets I would be lying if I said my pride was not affected a little. The Holy Spirit took hold of me and I knew my attitude had to change. Even scrubbing toilets can be done to the glory of God!
Mark 9:35) Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said, "If anyone wants to be first, he must be the very last, and the servant of all."
Proverbs 11:2) When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.
Proverbs 16:18-19) Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall. Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed than to share plunder with the proud.
Proverbs 18:12) Before his downfall a man's heart is proud, but humility comes before honor.
1 Corinthians 10:31) So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.
Ah busyness! Honestly, I am not too busy and I am okay with this. Dave and I love calmness and choose to lead a pretty slow-paced life. This works out well because I usually feel like I have not slept in days! Aaaaanywho, on to my point. There have been times when we have been very busy though. Even though we were busy doing good things we were not doing the best things. The best things are found when we look outside ourselves and our agenda. I make time for priorities. We planned to stay in Georgia for Thanksgiving and Christmas this year. After a crazy year we thought a nice holiday at home would be ideal. Dave even took time off work at Thanksgiving and Christmas! Before Thanksgiving, I told Dave since we had no plans for the holidays we should go to the Golden Harvest Food Bank and serve Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner. He was all for it! So do you want to know how it turned out? Time got away. WE enjoyed OURSELVES at home, WE ate OUR favorite foods, watched OUR favorite shows, opened lots of gifts to US...well, we focused on ourselves. Even in our non-busyness we did not serve at that time. So if you think when you are less busy you will serve, it probably will not happen then either.
Matthew 6:33) But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
Luke 10:38-42) Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet and listened to his teaching. But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me.” But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.” *The word 'serve' here can be thought of as busyness.
Ephesians 5:15-17) Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is.
I'm three for three so far because I can also be judgmental! One Sunday Pastor Bobby gave everyone in church either $1, 5, 10, or 20 bills to give away. We explained this to Eli and he knew we had $5 to spend on someone else, someone we did not know. The next week we were out shopping and as we pulled up to a red light we noticed a homeless man standing on the corner holding a sign. Eli inquired to why the man was standing there. I explained he was asking for money because he had no house and was probably very hungry. Eli immediately said, "let's give him our 'monies' Mommy! He could buy a house!" My heart broke over Eli's innocence AND how my first thought was I wondered what bad decisions that man made to get him to where he was. I am just being honest here! Who am I to judge that man?! How many times have I not served another because I have deemed them unworthy?
Matthew 7:2) For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you.
John 8:7) And as they continued to ask him, he stood up and said to them, “Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her.”
John 7:24) Do not judge by appearances, but judge with right judgment.”
Jesus is clear in John 13:14 as to what we should be doing. He tells us to serve others because He first served us.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Choosing to Get Out of the Muck
Today's inspiration author is Dionysus of Alexandria. He was a 3rd century Pope and scholar. He was born into a wealthy pagan family. He spent his life reading and studying. He came to know the Lord later in life. During this time Alexandrian Christians were heavily persecuted by atrocious means. This is a quick summary, but hopefully somewhat interesting.
John 13:10-11) Jesus answered, "A person who has had a bath needs only to wash his feet; his whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you." For He knew who was going to betray Him, and that was why He said not every one is clean.
I have to apologize before you read this because I had trouble translating what was in my brain to the paper. Hopefully some blessings can still come from today's study! My study is progressing through the section of the washing of the disciples' feet. In John 13:10-11, Jesus calls out that someone who will betray Him. The Lord was not leading me to dissect the last part of the verse, but rather to take a closer look at the beginning. As usual, Jesus' words were very profound. When I take the time to dissect His words is where the true wisdom is found. The key is taking time. When I became a Christian I was made clean by the blood of Jesus.
Isaiah 1:18) "Come now, let us reason together," says the Lord. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool."
Here the Lord is commanding Judah to come to Him and settle their differences. Judah was a sin-sick nation who fiercely rebelled against God. Is that not a picture of humanity as a whole before we come to accept His saving grace? The blood of Jesus washes my body clean. Matthew 26:41 immediately comes to my mind.
Matthew 26:41) Keep watch and pray that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.
Jesus knew this. He knows my every weakness now. When talking to the disciples He reminded them their whole body has been made clean but they still need a foot washing. This presents a vivid vision in my mind. I picture myself dressed in a beautiful white dress (Okay, I'm wearing my wedding dress. I have always wanted to wear it again...oh, and my veil too!) stepping in some gross and disgusting manure. Actually, I am wearing my wedding dress cleaning Jessie's stall barefoot. I am getting way too into this visual! Because I am a child of God I do not need a full shower, but rather a foot washing. This is what Jesus is telling His men. The earth is a messy place to live. Sometimes the mess we are walking in is caused by others. More often it is our own mess because as Matthew 26:41 says, "our flesh is weak." We have a bent toward sin. When we get saved our desires SHOULD change, but the battle ensues. Even though my intentions are holy I fall.
Quite frankly, I am extremely discouraged right now. I am tired of feeling tired and terrible. My whole heart longs for wellness. Whenever I do my study I try to relate it to where I am at. Some studies directly relate and I am able to hear the Lord loud and clear. Others, not so much. Today's study is a 'not so much.'
After sitting here quietly for a few minutes a thought came to mind. I can wallow in self-pity. I can dwell on the fact I am so tired I can barely see straight or that this journey seems never-ending and stay in the muck OR I can decide to rinse off and see the positive. My health problems are different then unrepentant sin but the principle is the same. I can stay where I am or move into something better. For me, now, the better place is positive thinking. For the unrepentant heart, the better place is the wash basin.
So here is my list of positives for enduring what I have with my health.
- A sense of wonder when I look at Eli. He actually began life in a petri dish!
- A sense of compassion for suffering because my condition has caused me great suffering.
- A complete dependence on the strength of God. There have been days, months, years where I did not think I could walk up the stairs let alone care for a child and handle a dying parent.
- A patience that is not of this world. This is still a struggle because Godly patience is waiting with a GOOD ATTITUDE and not just waiting. Yeah, I know!!!!
- The ability to know he does what I need. Granted, I have to remind myself of this 9,392 times a day.
- A desire to learn God's Word inside and out. Face it, that desire does not come on the mountain tops.
- The braveness to talk openly about Jesus Christ.
- The ability to run an 8-minute mile for ten miles even though my fatigue was laughing in my face.
Turns out this drive contributed to the worsening of my condition (enter "over-training"). I thought the day I skipped the gym because of tiredness was the day insomnia, fatigue, and sickness won. I was not about to let that happen. I never let how I felt dictate working out with all my might. It was NOT going to stop me or slow me down so each mile I pushed harder and harder. With the help of my compounding pharmacist, Dawn, I now see the harm in my actions. She praised me for my drive (I am a ridiculously driven person), but thought maybe I could find a new avenue for it! She understood where I was coming from. I no longer beat my body into submission. It was not crying uncle. Do I still work out? Yep, six days a week, but it is toned down by like a million! Now it's an extremely high intensity workout, but very short (google Tabata Protocol). Apparently just because you can run 30 miles a week does not mean you should. It's okay to laugh, I am!
- A depth of character that can only come about through suffering.
- The realization that I cannot have what I want when I want it.
- The understanding of how badly my mom wanted to get better. Obviously my situation is not life or death as hers was, but I do have a taste of what she endured.
- The realization that God cannot be manipulated into doing what I want.
There may be more and I do not list these to brag on myself because my weak flesh is much happier staying in the muck of self-pity and whining. There is something strangely satisfying about complaining. None of these positive aspects occur in my own power and would not be possible without my Father.
Genesis 50:20) You plotted evil against me, but God turned it into good, in order to preserve the lives of many people who are alive today because of what happened.
Romans 8:28) We know that in all things God works for good for those who love Him, those whom He has called according to His purpose.
John 13:10-11) Jesus answered, "A person who has had a bath needs only to wash his feet; his whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you." For He knew who was going to betray Him, and that was why He said not every one is clean.
I have to apologize before you read this because I had trouble translating what was in my brain to the paper. Hopefully some blessings can still come from today's study! My study is progressing through the section of the washing of the disciples' feet. In John 13:10-11, Jesus calls out that someone who will betray Him. The Lord was not leading me to dissect the last part of the verse, but rather to take a closer look at the beginning. As usual, Jesus' words were very profound. When I take the time to dissect His words is where the true wisdom is found. The key is taking time. When I became a Christian I was made clean by the blood of Jesus.
Isaiah 1:18) "Come now, let us reason together," says the Lord. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool."
Here the Lord is commanding Judah to come to Him and settle their differences. Judah was a sin-sick nation who fiercely rebelled against God. Is that not a picture of humanity as a whole before we come to accept His saving grace? The blood of Jesus washes my body clean. Matthew 26:41 immediately comes to my mind.
Matthew 26:41) Keep watch and pray that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.
Jesus knew this. He knows my every weakness now. When talking to the disciples He reminded them their whole body has been made clean but they still need a foot washing. This presents a vivid vision in my mind. I picture myself dressed in a beautiful white dress (Okay, I'm wearing my wedding dress. I have always wanted to wear it again...oh, and my veil too!) stepping in some gross and disgusting manure. Actually, I am wearing my wedding dress cleaning Jessie's stall barefoot. I am getting way too into this visual! Because I am a child of God I do not need a full shower, but rather a foot washing. This is what Jesus is telling His men. The earth is a messy place to live. Sometimes the mess we are walking in is caused by others. More often it is our own mess because as Matthew 26:41 says, "our flesh is weak." We have a bent toward sin. When we get saved our desires SHOULD change, but the battle ensues. Even though my intentions are holy I fall.
Quite frankly, I am extremely discouraged right now. I am tired of feeling tired and terrible. My whole heart longs for wellness. Whenever I do my study I try to relate it to where I am at. Some studies directly relate and I am able to hear the Lord loud and clear. Others, not so much. Today's study is a 'not so much.'
After sitting here quietly for a few minutes a thought came to mind. I can wallow in self-pity. I can dwell on the fact I am so tired I can barely see straight or that this journey seems never-ending and stay in the muck OR I can decide to rinse off and see the positive. My health problems are different then unrepentant sin but the principle is the same. I can stay where I am or move into something better. For me, now, the better place is positive thinking. For the unrepentant heart, the better place is the wash basin.
So here is my list of positives for enduring what I have with my health.
- A sense of wonder when I look at Eli. He actually began life in a petri dish!
- A sense of compassion for suffering because my condition has caused me great suffering.
- A complete dependence on the strength of God. There have been days, months, years where I did not think I could walk up the stairs let alone care for a child and handle a dying parent.
- A patience that is not of this world. This is still a struggle because Godly patience is waiting with a GOOD ATTITUDE and not just waiting. Yeah, I know!!!!
- The ability to know he does what I need. Granted, I have to remind myself of this 9,392 times a day.
- A desire to learn God's Word inside and out. Face it, that desire does not come on the mountain tops.
- The braveness to talk openly about Jesus Christ.
- The ability to run an 8-minute mile for ten miles even though my fatigue was laughing in my face.
Turns out this drive contributed to the worsening of my condition (enter "over-training"). I thought the day I skipped the gym because of tiredness was the day insomnia, fatigue, and sickness won. I was not about to let that happen. I never let how I felt dictate working out with all my might. It was NOT going to stop me or slow me down so each mile I pushed harder and harder. With the help of my compounding pharmacist, Dawn, I now see the harm in my actions. She praised me for my drive (I am a ridiculously driven person), but thought maybe I could find a new avenue for it! She understood where I was coming from. I no longer beat my body into submission. It was not crying uncle. Do I still work out? Yep, six days a week, but it is toned down by like a million! Now it's an extremely high intensity workout, but very short (google Tabata Protocol). Apparently just because you can run 30 miles a week does not mean you should. It's okay to laugh, I am!
- A depth of character that can only come about through suffering.
- The realization that I cannot have what I want when I want it.
- The understanding of how badly my mom wanted to get better. Obviously my situation is not life or death as hers was, but I do have a taste of what she endured.
- The realization that God cannot be manipulated into doing what I want.
There may be more and I do not list these to brag on myself because my weak flesh is much happier staying in the muck of self-pity and whining. There is something strangely satisfying about complaining. None of these positive aspects occur in my own power and would not be possible without my Father.
Genesis 50:20) You plotted evil against me, but God turned it into good, in order to preserve the lives of many people who are alive today because of what happened.
Romans 8:28) We know that in all things God works for good for those who love Him, those whom He has called according to His purpose.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Blessing Others
Today's entry is inspired by Matthew Henry. If you are not familiar with him I will provide some information. He was born in 1662 and died in 1714. He was an English commentator on the Bible. He was also a Presbyterian minister who originally gave up studying law to become a minister. His Bible commentary is one of the most comprehensive studies on the New and Old Testaments. He provides commentary for each verse. Charles Spurgeon (referred to as the People's Preacher) said that, "every minister ought to read it entirely and carefully through once at least." I would think this would be beneficial for everyone.
Let me share my study for today.
John 13:6) He came to Simon Peter, who said to Him, "Lord are you going to wash my feet?"
I do not believe Peter gets it at first. He may have even been caught off guard by Jesus' request. A few verses down he declines the offer.
John 13:8) Peter declared, "Never at any time will you wash my feet!" "If I do not wash your feet," Jesus answered, "you will no longer by my disciple."
How many times have I done this same thing? I decline other's help for a few reasons. The first reason is because I think I can handle it all or I want others to think I can. The second reason is pride. "Nope, I am good," is what I say. This is such a selfish reaction because by my saying no I am stealing the blessing they receive from helping. People want to help.
My last entry mentioned my friend Beth. I was scheduled to leave for Ohio on a Wednesday. On Tuesday she invited Eli over to play so I could pack in peace. I declined because I did not want to be a bother and I could handle it all. As I began to pack I put a cartoon on for Eli to keep him occupied. Then it hit me! He could be over playing with his best pal if I was not stubborn. I immediately called Beth and asked if the offer was still open. It was . Soon after I dropped him off at Beth's house down the street my dad called. He advised me Mom took another downward turn and was not expected to live much longer. I knew she was not well but hearing it again broke my heart. In between sobs I called the airline and changed my flight. It left in two hours! Guess what? I was already packed! I had a few minutes to gather myself before picking up Eli. We rushed home threw our suitcase in the car and sped off to the airport. God knew I would need that help right then. Never before had I felt such an urgency to get to the airport. I thought I had said my good-byes a few weeks before as I left Mom's bedside, but I learned in that moment I needed one more. I still do.
So how does this relate to Peter and having his feet washed? At first Peter made a mistake by declining the washing. He did not submit. Accepting help is a submissive action. It dawned on him he desperately needed Christ's help. Face it, we all do. This is true after initial salvation too. Peter realized his whole nature was polluted and he needed help.
John 13:9) "Then, Lord," Simon Peter replied, "not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!"
Not accepting God's help whether it be His work on the cross for salvation or any other daily need is behaving like Peter in verse 13:8. Not going to Him for all my needs, in essence, is declining His work on the cross. There are a few worry strongholds in my life. When I allow myself to act out in worry I am declining the Lord's help. Usually it is because I think I can handle it and figure it all out with my stellar reasoning skills. Hopefully you can sense my sarcasm! Trusting Him in certain areas is hard for me. We have all heard the saying, "if you want something done right, do it yourself." Sadly that is my attitude all too often with the Lord.
To live the full life I desire and He desires for me, I must accept His help every breathing second. Accepting the help of others is tough. When I accept anothers help it blesses them. I am always blessed too. We pray for God to shower blessing on us, but what about blessing God by accepting His help?
Let me share my study for today.
John 13:6) He came to Simon Peter, who said to Him, "Lord are you going to wash my feet?"
I do not believe Peter gets it at first. He may have even been caught off guard by Jesus' request. A few verses down he declines the offer.
John 13:8) Peter declared, "Never at any time will you wash my feet!" "If I do not wash your feet," Jesus answered, "you will no longer by my disciple."
How many times have I done this same thing? I decline other's help for a few reasons. The first reason is because I think I can handle it all or I want others to think I can. The second reason is pride. "Nope, I am good," is what I say. This is such a selfish reaction because by my saying no I am stealing the blessing they receive from helping. People want to help.
My last entry mentioned my friend Beth. I was scheduled to leave for Ohio on a Wednesday. On Tuesday she invited Eli over to play so I could pack in peace. I declined because I did not want to be a bother and I could handle it all. As I began to pack I put a cartoon on for Eli to keep him occupied. Then it hit me! He could be over playing with his best pal if I was not stubborn. I immediately called Beth and asked if the offer was still open. It was . Soon after I dropped him off at Beth's house down the street my dad called. He advised me Mom took another downward turn and was not expected to live much longer. I knew she was not well but hearing it again broke my heart. In between sobs I called the airline and changed my flight. It left in two hours! Guess what? I was already packed! I had a few minutes to gather myself before picking up Eli. We rushed home threw our suitcase in the car and sped off to the airport. God knew I would need that help right then. Never before had I felt such an urgency to get to the airport. I thought I had said my good-byes a few weeks before as I left Mom's bedside, but I learned in that moment I needed one more. I still do.
So how does this relate to Peter and having his feet washed? At first Peter made a mistake by declining the washing. He did not submit. Accepting help is a submissive action. It dawned on him he desperately needed Christ's help. Face it, we all do. This is true after initial salvation too. Peter realized his whole nature was polluted and he needed help.
John 13:9) "Then, Lord," Simon Peter replied, "not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!"
Not accepting God's help whether it be His work on the cross for salvation or any other daily need is behaving like Peter in verse 13:8. Not going to Him for all my needs, in essence, is declining His work on the cross. There are a few worry strongholds in my life. When I allow myself to act out in worry I am declining the Lord's help. Usually it is because I think I can handle it and figure it all out with my stellar reasoning skills. Hopefully you can sense my sarcasm! Trusting Him in certain areas is hard for me. We have all heard the saying, "if you want something done right, do it yourself." Sadly that is my attitude all too often with the Lord.
To live the full life I desire and He desires for me, I must accept His help every breathing second. Accepting the help of others is tough. When I accept anothers help it blesses them. I am always blessed too. We pray for God to shower blessing on us, but what about blessing God by accepting His help?
Friday, January 20, 2012
What is Faith
I am in a Bible study with my friends that meets twice a month. My heart is so thankful for these ladies. They truly have become family to me. When we moved to Georgia I knew NO ONE...not a soul. Leaving my best buddy, Jessy, was so painful. Jess, if your reading this I love you beautiful. Fortunately we keep in touch through social media and we even squeeze in the occasional vacation together (with our boys no doubt). Many of you know me very well so you will think this is funny! I regularly saw my physical therapist for overuse injuries from running. Kristin and I became fast friends. We talked about pretty much everything during our sessions. I still remember her asking me why I thought my injuries flared up since the last time we met. I advised her it could have been from running with ankle weights on. She just looked at me and said, "why would you do that?!" Then we both cracked up! God sure can meet us right where we are at. I actually didn't know anyone in Cincinnati when we moved there either and God provided me with two wonderful friends. My hope is I offered them what they needed in a friend too. Back to Georgia...
As I think about each lady in the Bible study I think of what wonderful people they are in their own rights. They all love Jesus! Some I know better than others, but all of them are dear to me. One woman, Beth, was my first friend here in Georgia. She walked through the pain of my mom's death right beside me always offering an ear, a shoulder, or a few hours of child care for Eli. Her daughter is Eli's age and they attend preschool together. They also spend hours together in the child watch at the gym. I just hope that I can return the favors to her one day when she needs.
We are studying a Joyce Meyer book titled Be Anxious for Nothing. I love Joyce! The chapter is about how us believers are in a war for rest. Satan loves drama, worry, anxiousness, and he is the polar opposite of calmness. The chapter also speaks of faith and how faith is a remedy for worry. I got to thinking about what faith is. It is one of those words you hear often, but it's meaning can be muddled. To me faith is a confidence and trust in God. It is believing He is who He says He is and will do what He says He will do. I believe Christian faith is active and not passive.
18 But someone will say, “You have faith; I have deeds.”
Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by my deeds. 19 You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.
20 You foolish person, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless[a]? 21 Was not our father Abraham considered righteous for what he did when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? 22 You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did. 23 And the scripture was fulfilled that says, “Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness,”[b] and he was called God’s friend. 24 You see that a person is considered righteous by what they do and not by faith alone.
25 In the same way, was not even Rahab the prostitute considered righteous for what she did when she gave lodging to the spies and sent them off in a different direction? 26 As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.
I absolutely LOVE verse 19. Wow. Satan believes in God and knows He Is. It is true that we cannot work our way to God. We can tithe until we are blue in the face or take Communion everyday, but He knows our hearts. He knows why we are doing a deed. We do good deeds because we love Him and want to obey Him. He commands us to love others and we are to show them God's love through good deeds. I often do good out of obligation. Again, He knows my heart.
So what does this have to do with my prologue? I got to thinking about being a friend and what that entails. Faith is doing something and so is being a friend. I think about Jessica and our hours at the gym, Coney Island, and barn together. We pretty much covered all of life and then some. We met soon before our departure from Cincinnati. We joke that we had a whirlwind romance. Then I think of Kristin and how I knew immediately she was a person of great character. It was wonderful to get to know her so well even though she was working most of the time. I live states away now but hope I left an impression on each of them.
I know what I want in a friend, but am I offering that to another? My friends here in Georgia have been incredible as I daily process the death of my mother. They have also listened to me whine about my hormones and how I am going to throw every ounce of hormone out my kitchen window. It was a rough day! They commiserated with me when I broke my ankle and shin. The thing is I do not want to be dead weight. I do not want to be the heavy. We all sat at the pool together all summer and laughed about pretty much everything! Laughing together is part of friendship too. When they are feeling heavy I want to be there and have, I hope. Kristin (Georgia Kristin that is) would not be happy if I shared the details of our last conversation on here!
James 2:24) You see that a person is considered righteous by what they do and not by faith alone.
A friend is considered a friend by what they do also. Me saying I am a friend does not make me one just like me saying I am a Christian does not make me one. It is what I do.
As I think about each lady in the Bible study I think of what wonderful people they are in their own rights. They all love Jesus! Some I know better than others, but all of them are dear to me. One woman, Beth, was my first friend here in Georgia. She walked through the pain of my mom's death right beside me always offering an ear, a shoulder, or a few hours of child care for Eli. Her daughter is Eli's age and they attend preschool together. They also spend hours together in the child watch at the gym. I just hope that I can return the favors to her one day when she needs.
We are studying a Joyce Meyer book titled Be Anxious for Nothing. I love Joyce! The chapter is about how us believers are in a war for rest. Satan loves drama, worry, anxiousness, and he is the polar opposite of calmness. The chapter also speaks of faith and how faith is a remedy for worry. I got to thinking about what faith is. It is one of those words you hear often, but it's meaning can be muddled. To me faith is a confidence and trust in God. It is believing He is who He says He is and will do what He says He will do. I believe Christian faith is active and not passive.
James 2:18-26
18 But someone will say, “You have faith; I have deeds.”
Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by my deeds. 19 You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.
20 You foolish person, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless[a]? 21 Was not our father Abraham considered righteous for what he did when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? 22 You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did. 23 And the scripture was fulfilled that says, “Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness,”[b] and he was called God’s friend. 24 You see that a person is considered righteous by what they do and not by faith alone.
25 In the same way, was not even Rahab the prostitute considered righteous for what she did when she gave lodging to the spies and sent them off in a different direction? 26 As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.
I absolutely LOVE verse 19. Wow. Satan believes in God and knows He Is. It is true that we cannot work our way to God. We can tithe until we are blue in the face or take Communion everyday, but He knows our hearts. He knows why we are doing a deed. We do good deeds because we love Him and want to obey Him. He commands us to love others and we are to show them God's love through good deeds. I often do good out of obligation. Again, He knows my heart.
So what does this have to do with my prologue? I got to thinking about being a friend and what that entails. Faith is doing something and so is being a friend. I think about Jessica and our hours at the gym, Coney Island, and barn together. We pretty much covered all of life and then some. We met soon before our departure from Cincinnati. We joke that we had a whirlwind romance. Then I think of Kristin and how I knew immediately she was a person of great character. It was wonderful to get to know her so well even though she was working most of the time. I live states away now but hope I left an impression on each of them.
I know what I want in a friend, but am I offering that to another? My friends here in Georgia have been incredible as I daily process the death of my mother. They have also listened to me whine about my hormones and how I am going to throw every ounce of hormone out my kitchen window. It was a rough day! They commiserated with me when I broke my ankle and shin. The thing is I do not want to be dead weight. I do not want to be the heavy. We all sat at the pool together all summer and laughed about pretty much everything! Laughing together is part of friendship too. When they are feeling heavy I want to be there and have, I hope. Kristin (Georgia Kristin that is) would not be happy if I shared the details of our last conversation on here!
James 2:24) You see that a person is considered righteous by what they do and not by faith alone.
A friend is considered a friend by what they do also. Me saying I am a friend does not make me one just like me saying I am a Christian does not make me one. It is what I do.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Keep Practicing
David Jeremiah is today's author. Some of you may have heard of his ministry, Turning Point, which is a daily radio show. He is a pastor, author, and evangelist. He is senior pastor of a church in California. His predecessor was Tim LaHaye. Tim LaHaye co-authored the Left Behind series of books. Jeremiah has ties to Ohio. He was born in Toledo and attended Cedarville College. I have never read any of his books before but have listened to Turning Point before. My mom loved David Jeremiah...he must be great!
John 13:3-5) Jesus knowing that the Father had given all things into His hands, and that He had come from God and was going to God, rose from supper and laid aside His garments, took a towel and girded Himself. After that, He poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples' feet, and to wipe them with the towel with which He was girded.
It is interesting that Matthew, Mark and Luke all omitted the foot washing during the Last Supper. John included it. It is believed that John wrote his account thirty to forty years after the other three. I have read the New Testament, but never thought about the foot washing story only being in the gospel of John. It is beneficial to look at the history of the books for clarity. This helps have a greater understanding of the verses contained within the book.
The Gospel of John was written to show the world that Jesus was the Christ. He was the Son of God sent by the Father to give believers eternal life.
John 3:16) For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only son, so that everyone who believes in Him may not die but have eternal life.
On a side note, I recall my Aunt MiChelle calling one Sunday morning in late February, 2011. She had come over to my parent's house to relieve Dad of his duties of caring for Mom so he could attend church. MiChelle would give mom massages (with body wash as we later discovered...it is okay to laugh...we did) and read to her. She called to chat while she sat with mom and asked what else she should read to her. Dave recommended John. What wonderful words for Mom to hear as she lay on her death bed. Even if her ears and brain were destroyed her spirit was not. John 3:16 is engraved on her tombstone. One day, because of John 3:16, we will rejoice with her in the presence of our Savior.
Revelation 21:4) He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.
Okay, that was more then a side note. Back to a quick glance at the Gospel of John. John was one who was with Jesus when He raised Jairus' daughter from the dead, during the transfiguration, and in the Garden of Gethsemane. When Jesus selected John he was working as a fisherman. It is important to keep in mind the target audience because that explains much of the why and how a piece is written. John's audience were Christian Gentiles. Because of this, he often explains Jewish customs. Unlike Matthew, Mark and Luke, John presents Jesus' teachings in the context of conversations Jesus had with others. It is very interesting to read the Gospels because the same stories are being told in different fashions. The other men share the lessons in the form of parables and sermons. To me, there is a very personal feel to John's writings. John and James (disciple James not brother James) were brothers and are thought to be cousins of Jesus. The washing of the Disciples' feet is one of several stories only John includes. The others are the wedding feast at Cana, the women at the well (love that story), and the raising of Lazarus.
John 20:31) But these have been written in order that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through your faith in Him you may have life.
The above sums up the reason for the Gospel of John!
Back to the study. I get easily distracted when studying the Bible. I love the spiritual lesson within the pages and, being a history lover, I also love the historical wealth contained. How do I become a servant like Jesus was? Is it even possible? I think so. The one glaring difference between myself and Jesus is He was always sinless. Even as a follower of Jesus I have a pesky sin nature, proud flesh. Because of this, I need help. Who can help me bow before people I know would deny and betray me and wash their disgusting feet? The Helper. One purpose of the Holy Spirit is to come alongside the believer. He does what Jesus would do only from the inside. He accompanies me everywhere I go. I do not need to wait until Sunday to worship. I can do it through out my day. I am trying to get better at doing this and acknowledging Him in the small things. Acknowledging and letting Him know I need Him is an act of worship. The Holy Spirit gives me an eternal perspective if I allow Him to just like Jesus had when he walked the earth. Thinking eternally is impossible for me. It is possible with my Helper. In my study Dr. Jeremiah says we need to practice His presence. I like that.
Trials do not seem quite as large when I focus on my Helper handling them. I have felt very overwhelmed and discouraged over the last 5+ years about my health issues. I honestly have had to remind myself MANY times a day (and night...hello insomnia) that He has got this and I ask Him to empower me beyond my human ability. He always provides what I need. Then five minutes later I have to ask again. I guess that is what Dr. Jeremiah means by practicing His presence.
John 13:3-5) Jesus knowing that the Father had given all things into His hands, and that He had come from God and was going to God, rose from supper and laid aside His garments, took a towel and girded Himself. After that, He poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples' feet, and to wipe them with the towel with which He was girded.
It is interesting that Matthew, Mark and Luke all omitted the foot washing during the Last Supper. John included it. It is believed that John wrote his account thirty to forty years after the other three. I have read the New Testament, but never thought about the foot washing story only being in the gospel of John. It is beneficial to look at the history of the books for clarity. This helps have a greater understanding of the verses contained within the book.
The Gospel of John was written to show the world that Jesus was the Christ. He was the Son of God sent by the Father to give believers eternal life.
John 3:16) For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only son, so that everyone who believes in Him may not die but have eternal life.
On a side note, I recall my Aunt MiChelle calling one Sunday morning in late February, 2011. She had come over to my parent's house to relieve Dad of his duties of caring for Mom so he could attend church. MiChelle would give mom massages (with body wash as we later discovered...it is okay to laugh...we did) and read to her. She called to chat while she sat with mom and asked what else she should read to her. Dave recommended John. What wonderful words for Mom to hear as she lay on her death bed. Even if her ears and brain were destroyed her spirit was not. John 3:16 is engraved on her tombstone. One day, because of John 3:16, we will rejoice with her in the presence of our Savior.
Revelation 21:4) He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.
Okay, that was more then a side note. Back to a quick glance at the Gospel of John. John was one who was with Jesus when He raised Jairus' daughter from the dead, during the transfiguration, and in the Garden of Gethsemane. When Jesus selected John he was working as a fisherman. It is important to keep in mind the target audience because that explains much of the why and how a piece is written. John's audience were Christian Gentiles. Because of this, he often explains Jewish customs. Unlike Matthew, Mark and Luke, John presents Jesus' teachings in the context of conversations Jesus had with others. It is very interesting to read the Gospels because the same stories are being told in different fashions. The other men share the lessons in the form of parables and sermons. To me, there is a very personal feel to John's writings. John and James (disciple James not brother James) were brothers and are thought to be cousins of Jesus. The washing of the Disciples' feet is one of several stories only John includes. The others are the wedding feast at Cana, the women at the well (love that story), and the raising of Lazarus.
John 20:31) But these have been written in order that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through your faith in Him you may have life.
The above sums up the reason for the Gospel of John!
Back to the study. I get easily distracted when studying the Bible. I love the spiritual lesson within the pages and, being a history lover, I also love the historical wealth contained. How do I become a servant like Jesus was? Is it even possible? I think so. The one glaring difference between myself and Jesus is He was always sinless. Even as a follower of Jesus I have a pesky sin nature, proud flesh. Because of this, I need help. Who can help me bow before people I know would deny and betray me and wash their disgusting feet? The Helper. One purpose of the Holy Spirit is to come alongside the believer. He does what Jesus would do only from the inside. He accompanies me everywhere I go. I do not need to wait until Sunday to worship. I can do it through out my day. I am trying to get better at doing this and acknowledging Him in the small things. Acknowledging and letting Him know I need Him is an act of worship. The Holy Spirit gives me an eternal perspective if I allow Him to just like Jesus had when he walked the earth. Thinking eternally is impossible for me. It is possible with my Helper. In my study Dr. Jeremiah says we need to practice His presence. I like that.
Trials do not seem quite as large when I focus on my Helper handling them. I have felt very overwhelmed and discouraged over the last 5+ years about my health issues. I honestly have had to remind myself MANY times a day (and night...hello insomnia) that He has got this and I ask Him to empower me beyond my human ability. He always provides what I need. Then five minutes later I have to ask again. I guess that is what Dr. Jeremiah means by practicing His presence.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Growing Up is Hard to Do
Today's study is authored again by the Life Application Bible. We will jump right in! The study verse is below.
John 13:3-5) Jesus knew that the Father had given Him authority over everything and that He came from God and would return to God. So He got up from the table, took off His robe, wrapped a towel around His waist, and poured water into a basin. Then He began to wash the disciple's feet and to wipe them with a towel He had around Him.
Jesus knew Judas betrayed Him. Remember, Judas already had his treasure of thirty pieces of silver. Jesus knew Peter would deny Him the next morning. Actually, He knew they all would display complete weakness.
Matthew 26:56) But all this had taken place that the Scriptures of the prophets might be fulfilled. Then all the disciples left Him and fled.
If I back up and read the context of the above verse I learn that the burners were getting hot. Push was coming to shove! The disciples acted in the arm of the flesh and took off in Jesus desperate hour. I definitely have thought that the disciples were some kind of super-Christians. Turns out the group that gathered in the Upper Room were just human.
There have been times when I have tried to make an agreement with Jesus. "Okay God, if you take away this hormonal h*ll I am living in I will be the best Christian ever," I say. If you do this for me then I will do that for You. I promise! My word is good. He had just explained to His disciples He was going to die and unconscionable death for ALL mankind's sin then He served them. They repaid Him by scattering. Jesus they they would just like He knows when my promises are empty. He loves them anyway and He loves me anyway.
When the going gets tough do I stand with God or scatter? Many of those same disciples died a martyr's death. They came to a place where they had to decide. Most of us Americans will never be put to those same tests. The time of Jesus' death was time in the maturation process of each of those twelve men. They grew as they went just like I do (except for Judas). God knows my heart and knows when I am authentic.
So I will keep praying for my healing. I will wait and in the process, grow up. Growing up is hard to do as my mother often said.
John 13:3-5) Jesus knew that the Father had given Him authority over everything and that He came from God and would return to God. So He got up from the table, took off His robe, wrapped a towel around His waist, and poured water into a basin. Then He began to wash the disciple's feet and to wipe them with a towel He had around Him.
Jesus knew Judas betrayed Him. Remember, Judas already had his treasure of thirty pieces of silver. Jesus knew Peter would deny Him the next morning. Actually, He knew they all would display complete weakness.
Matthew 26:56) But all this had taken place that the Scriptures of the prophets might be fulfilled. Then all the disciples left Him and fled.
If I back up and read the context of the above verse I learn that the burners were getting hot. Push was coming to shove! The disciples acted in the arm of the flesh and took off in Jesus desperate hour. I definitely have thought that the disciples were some kind of super-Christians. Turns out the group that gathered in the Upper Room were just human.
There have been times when I have tried to make an agreement with Jesus. "Okay God, if you take away this hormonal h*ll I am living in I will be the best Christian ever," I say. If you do this for me then I will do that for You. I promise! My word is good. He had just explained to His disciples He was going to die and unconscionable death for ALL mankind's sin then He served them. They repaid Him by scattering. Jesus they they would just like He knows when my promises are empty. He loves them anyway and He loves me anyway.
When the going gets tough do I stand with God or scatter? Many of those same disciples died a martyr's death. They came to a place where they had to decide. Most of us Americans will never be put to those same tests. The time of Jesus' death was time in the maturation process of each of those twelve men. They grew as they went just like I do (except for Judas). God knows my heart and knows when I am authentic.
So I will keep praying for my healing. I will wait and in the process, grow up. Growing up is hard to do as my mother often said.
Monday, January 16, 2012
Jesus Washes the Disciples' Feet
I am onto the next section of my guide. Today's study does not have a specific author because it is the introduction. The introduction packed so much information I decided focus on it today. The daily Bible verse is below.
John 13:1) It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that His time had come for Him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved His own who were in the world, He now showed them the full extent of His love.
I have read about the Passover before, but decided to take a little time to refresh my memory. Again, my favorite site for question answering is www.gotquestions.org. It is really a great site! Basically Passover is a celebration. An angel of the Lord moved throughout Egypt destroying the firstborn of all people and animals. Read Exodus 11-12. This was the final plague and there were ten. You may be asking what there was to celebrate. The people were instructed to smear the blood of a spotless lamb over their doorposts. When the angel saw the blood he would 'passover' the home hence the name, Passover. There is the reason to celebrate! The story is a foreshadowing of the spotless lamb of Jesus and His sacrifice for us. Jewish people celebrate in remembrance of God's grace to them.
The Last Supper was a Passover meal and the last meal Jesus would eat before His arrest and crucifixion. Jesus wanted His disciples to remember what He was about to do for them. Jesus made some very bold predictions at that supper. He told them He would suffer and die, Peter would deny Him, and one would betray Him. It had to be an incredibly tense supper. The group took Communion and He washed their feet. Communion can be taken so lightly, but when you think about Communion in the historical sense it takes on a new dimension of seriousness.
1 Corinthians 5:7) Get rid of the old yeast, so that you may be a new unleavened batch—as you really are. For Christ, our Passover lamb, has been sacrificed.
One could make a whole study on the meaning of yeast in the above verse. It actually is rather interesting!
So to say the Last Supper was intense would be an understatement. Jesus had some serious words for His group. I cannot help but think about the bloody mess that was ahead of Jesus. His poor mother saw her son hanging on a cross. If you are feeling brave do some research on the physical implications of dying on a cross. You will not be the same.
What did Jesus do midst the supper? He bowed down before His disciples and began to wash their feet. These men did not shower each day like you and I. Their feet were horribly filthy. He washed their feet! I can imagine the sorrow being palpable. I have the privilege of knowing how the story ends. I can read it clearly printed in the Bible. I can even read different versions as to get an even clearer understanding. The disciples did not have that luxury. Clarity diminishes when we are in the furnace. As I study I cannot help but think of the reality of Jesus sacrifice to His disciples (they needed a Savior too) and all mankind. Then He begins washing THEIR feet.
My natural tendency is to serve those I deem worthy. If I serve too much without a thank you I feel taken advantage of. I mean I can get offended if I hold the door for someone and they walk through without saying thank you! This does not happen often here in the south! Today's study got me thinking about my lack of gratitude to the unblemished Lamb of God and how I serve Him by simply serving others with no strings attached. Boy do I have some work to do!
John 13:1) It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that His time had come for Him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved His own who were in the world, He now showed them the full extent of His love.
I have read about the Passover before, but decided to take a little time to refresh my memory. Again, my favorite site for question answering is www.gotquestions.org. It is really a great site! Basically Passover is a celebration. An angel of the Lord moved throughout Egypt destroying the firstborn of all people and animals. Read Exodus 11-12. This was the final plague and there were ten. You may be asking what there was to celebrate. The people were instructed to smear the blood of a spotless lamb over their doorposts. When the angel saw the blood he would 'passover' the home hence the name, Passover. There is the reason to celebrate! The story is a foreshadowing of the spotless lamb of Jesus and His sacrifice for us. Jewish people celebrate in remembrance of God's grace to them.
The Last Supper was a Passover meal and the last meal Jesus would eat before His arrest and crucifixion. Jesus wanted His disciples to remember what He was about to do for them. Jesus made some very bold predictions at that supper. He told them He would suffer and die, Peter would deny Him, and one would betray Him. It had to be an incredibly tense supper. The group took Communion and He washed their feet. Communion can be taken so lightly, but when you think about Communion in the historical sense it takes on a new dimension of seriousness.
1 Corinthians 5:7) Get rid of the old yeast, so that you may be a new unleavened batch—as you really are. For Christ, our Passover lamb, has been sacrificed.
One could make a whole study on the meaning of yeast in the above verse. It actually is rather interesting!
So to say the Last Supper was intense would be an understatement. Jesus had some serious words for His group. I cannot help but think about the bloody mess that was ahead of Jesus. His poor mother saw her son hanging on a cross. If you are feeling brave do some research on the physical implications of dying on a cross. You will not be the same.
What did Jesus do midst the supper? He bowed down before His disciples and began to wash their feet. These men did not shower each day like you and I. Their feet were horribly filthy. He washed their feet! I can imagine the sorrow being palpable. I have the privilege of knowing how the story ends. I can read it clearly printed in the Bible. I can even read different versions as to get an even clearer understanding. The disciples did not have that luxury. Clarity diminishes when we are in the furnace. As I study I cannot help but think of the reality of Jesus sacrifice to His disciples (they needed a Savior too) and all mankind. Then He begins washing THEIR feet.
My natural tendency is to serve those I deem worthy. If I serve too much without a thank you I feel taken advantage of. I mean I can get offended if I hold the door for someone and they walk through without saying thank you! This does not happen often here in the south! Today's study got me thinking about my lack of gratitude to the unblemished Lamb of God and how I serve Him by simply serving others with no strings attached. Boy do I have some work to do!
Sunday, January 15, 2012
From Disciple to Evil Instrument
Today we can dig right into the study with no quick look at the author because it is the same as yesterday. The verse for today is below.
Luke 22:3) Then Satan entered into Judas.
Wow, that is a short and sweet verse! How did Judas go from a close and personal friend of Jesus to someone full of such hate? By this time Judas and Jesus had been on the mission field for three years. These three years had not been easy and it was far from glamorous. The 'important' people hated Jesus and because of this the Disciples were also hated. As a disciple of Jesus just think of the amazing things Judas saw! Wow!
We looked briefly at the reasons why Judas betrayed Jesus the other day. The real reason is shrouded in mystery. God only knows. It is quite possible that even Judas does not know the real reason. After all, God knows me better than I know myself.
Psalm 139:13) For You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother's womb.
That verse became so real to me when I was pregnant with Eli. I could feel his movement and was constantly amazed by the fact that this tiny baby was being formed right within me. That is completely off topic. I apologize. Back to Judas. The Scripture says that Satan entered Judas. That is pretty scary. Satan saw something in Judas. He saw fertile ground to plant his evil seed. At some point Judas cracked the door open to Satan. Maybe it started with what seemed an innocent thought. Judas may have built a case against Jesus in order to justify his evil thoughts. I have done that. If I have a problem with someone I think of everything negative against them so I feel justified in my ill feelings towards them. This is not so uncommon if we are honest with ourselves. Heaven only knows what went through Judas' mind.
The practical application is what can happen when I give Satan a foothold. Granted I have the Holy Spirit within me so Satan has no ability to enter me. Some theological views would passionately disagree with me. That can be a debate for another day. Moving on. I still have the ability to act on my sinful desires, thoughts, passions, etc. Judas chose at one point to follow the arm of the flesh. My Bible study girls and I just studied the differences between acting in the arm of the Lord verses the arm of the flesh. What if Judas said, "get behind me Satan!?" Would Christ not have gone to the cross? He would have because that was his mission. There would have been another way for Jesus to get to the cross. That is not the point of our study, but would make another interesting study.
Judas felt justified in his actions. I am also good at justifying my sin. It is hard to resist.
Luke 9:23) And He said to them all (the Disciples), "If you want to come with me, you must forget yourself, take up your cross every day, and follow me."
I used to think I did not commit 'big' sins. The sins I am thinking of are sins like thievery, murder, and adultery. I was good to go! Then God laid something very powerful on my heart. Sin is sin. God has no rating system. Granted, some sins come with harsher consequences, but sin is sin. I have sinful attitudes at times. I can be jealous, unloving, ungrateful, distrustful of the Lord, and the list goes on. These types of sin appear small, but like Judas it only takes a crack in the door to let evil in. Unconfessed and unrepentant sin can ruin the life of the Believer and the lives of those around them.
1 Peter 5:8-9) Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the Devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know what your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
May I not give him a foothold. I think of another verse along the same line.
James 4:7) So then, submit yourselves to God, resist the Devil, and he will run away from you.
What another blessed assurance!
Luke 22:3) Then Satan entered into Judas.
Wow, that is a short and sweet verse! How did Judas go from a close and personal friend of Jesus to someone full of such hate? By this time Judas and Jesus had been on the mission field for three years. These three years had not been easy and it was far from glamorous. The 'important' people hated Jesus and because of this the Disciples were also hated. As a disciple of Jesus just think of the amazing things Judas saw! Wow!
We looked briefly at the reasons why Judas betrayed Jesus the other day. The real reason is shrouded in mystery. God only knows. It is quite possible that even Judas does not know the real reason. After all, God knows me better than I know myself.
Psalm 139:13) For You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother's womb.
That verse became so real to me when I was pregnant with Eli. I could feel his movement and was constantly amazed by the fact that this tiny baby was being formed right within me. That is completely off topic. I apologize. Back to Judas. The Scripture says that Satan entered Judas. That is pretty scary. Satan saw something in Judas. He saw fertile ground to plant his evil seed. At some point Judas cracked the door open to Satan. Maybe it started with what seemed an innocent thought. Judas may have built a case against Jesus in order to justify his evil thoughts. I have done that. If I have a problem with someone I think of everything negative against them so I feel justified in my ill feelings towards them. This is not so uncommon if we are honest with ourselves. Heaven only knows what went through Judas' mind.
The practical application is what can happen when I give Satan a foothold. Granted I have the Holy Spirit within me so Satan has no ability to enter me. Some theological views would passionately disagree with me. That can be a debate for another day. Moving on. I still have the ability to act on my sinful desires, thoughts, passions, etc. Judas chose at one point to follow the arm of the flesh. My Bible study girls and I just studied the differences between acting in the arm of the Lord verses the arm of the flesh. What if Judas said, "get behind me Satan!?" Would Christ not have gone to the cross? He would have because that was his mission. There would have been another way for Jesus to get to the cross. That is not the point of our study, but would make another interesting study.
Judas felt justified in his actions. I am also good at justifying my sin. It is hard to resist.
Luke 9:23) And He said to them all (the Disciples), "If you want to come with me, you must forget yourself, take up your cross every day, and follow me."
I used to think I did not commit 'big' sins. The sins I am thinking of are sins like thievery, murder, and adultery. I was good to go! Then God laid something very powerful on my heart. Sin is sin. God has no rating system. Granted, some sins come with harsher consequences, but sin is sin. I have sinful attitudes at times. I can be jealous, unloving, ungrateful, distrustful of the Lord, and the list goes on. These types of sin appear small, but like Judas it only takes a crack in the door to let evil in. Unconfessed and unrepentant sin can ruin the life of the Believer and the lives of those around them.
1 Peter 5:8-9) Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the Devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know what your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
May I not give him a foothold. I think of another verse along the same line.
James 4:7) So then, submit yourselves to God, resist the Devil, and he will run away from you.
What another blessed assurance!
Saturday, January 14, 2012
It Is One of You
Today's writing in my guide is authored by W. Phillip Keller. His short story is his life spanned from 1920-1997. He was a very eclectic man who was a photographer, author, farmer. etc. Keller often explained that he was not born with abundant joy, but he learned how to live this way over a lifetime with Christ, his dearest friend and Savior. He was born in Kenya to missionary parents. They shipped him off to a far away boarding school at age 8. Can you imagine sending your child off to boarding school?! He came to know the Lord as an adult and never looked back. On to my study.
Mark 14:18) Now as they sat and ate, Jesus said, "Assuredly, I say to you, one of you who eats with Me will betray Me."
I wonder if it got awkward when He made this proclamation? They all denied the charge. Judas asked, is it I?" Funny thing is he knew it was him. Judas showed signs of greed before. He thought the oil used on Jesus' feet was being wasteful. If I'm not mistaken I believe Judas was considered the treasurer of the bunch.
Thirty pieces of silver was not a huge amount. Two days ago I thought about how I am capable of such evil and how I must choose Jesus over and over again. What a petty things I've picked over Jesus!
Judas already had the money. That is something I did not know until today's study. He had that money already in his pocket and he had the gall to say, "is it I?" Judas had been fooled by Satan. When he understood what had happened he back peddled and fast. I would guess this rang in his ears, "Woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been better for that man if he had not been born," (Matthew 26:24). Judas ended his life. Compare him to Peter. Peter was a bit hasty. I am sure the soldier whose ear got cut off would agree. Peter will be fun to meet one day. I bet my mom and Peter are great friends! Peter repented for his action and he maintained an intimate friendship with Jesus Christ.
After reading my short text from Mr. Keller today two ideas were laid upon my heart. The first is I can cannot fool God. Judas sat there at that table with those coins rattling in his pocket and denied he would be the 'sell-out.' As frustrating as it is sometimes to not be able to fool God, I am glad that the God of the Universe cannot be fooled.
Psalm 139:1-4) You have searched me, LORD, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you, LORD, know it completely.
My second thought is if I come to the cross Sweetly Broken (one of my favorite songs ever...look up Jeremy Riddle on Itunes) with a repentant heart I can be forgiven! Nothing is too ugly. Here is one of my favorite verses in the Bible.
Lamentations 3:23) Great is His faithfulness; His mercies are new every morning.
There would have been new mercies for Judas just like there were for Paul...and are for Anna.
I was not sure what was going to come out of today's study when I started because the topic is less than joyous. True to God's character He takes pain and changes it to joy. Today's message is so encouraging because I serve an all-knowing (omniscient) God who forgives ALL my sins. As Pastor Steve from Rivertree would say, "and that's pretty cool!"
Mark 14:18) Now as they sat and ate, Jesus said, "Assuredly, I say to you, one of you who eats with Me will betray Me."
I wonder if it got awkward when He made this proclamation? They all denied the charge. Judas asked, is it I?" Funny thing is he knew it was him. Judas showed signs of greed before. He thought the oil used on Jesus' feet was being wasteful. If I'm not mistaken I believe Judas was considered the treasurer of the bunch.
Thirty pieces of silver was not a huge amount. Two days ago I thought about how I am capable of such evil and how I must choose Jesus over and over again. What a petty things I've picked over Jesus!
Judas already had the money. That is something I did not know until today's study. He had that money already in his pocket and he had the gall to say, "is it I?" Judas had been fooled by Satan. When he understood what had happened he back peddled and fast. I would guess this rang in his ears, "Woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been better for that man if he had not been born," (Matthew 26:24). Judas ended his life. Compare him to Peter. Peter was a bit hasty. I am sure the soldier whose ear got cut off would agree. Peter will be fun to meet one day. I bet my mom and Peter are great friends! Peter repented for his action and he maintained an intimate friendship with Jesus Christ.
After reading my short text from Mr. Keller today two ideas were laid upon my heart. The first is I can cannot fool God. Judas sat there at that table with those coins rattling in his pocket and denied he would be the 'sell-out.' As frustrating as it is sometimes to not be able to fool God, I am glad that the God of the Universe cannot be fooled.
Psalm 139:1-4) You have searched me, LORD, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you, LORD, know it completely.
My second thought is if I come to the cross Sweetly Broken (one of my favorite songs ever...look up Jeremy Riddle on Itunes) with a repentant heart I can be forgiven! Nothing is too ugly. Here is one of my favorite verses in the Bible.
Lamentations 3:23) Great is His faithfulness; His mercies are new every morning.
There would have been new mercies for Judas just like there were for Paul...and are for Anna.
I was not sure what was going to come out of today's study when I started because the topic is less than joyous. True to God's character He takes pain and changes it to joy. Today's message is so encouraging because I serve an all-knowing (omniscient) God who forgives ALL my sins. As Pastor Steve from Rivertree would say, "and that's pretty cool!"
Does Faith Ever Do Nothing?
Below is a copy of a daily devotion I get over E-mail. It was my devotion for today. If you are not familiar with Adrian Rogers and Love Worth Finding Ministries I highly recommend checking him out. I read a book years ago by Dr. Rogers called, The Incredible Power of Kingdom Authority: Getting an Upper Hand on the Underworld.
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Faith without Works Is Dead
BIBLE MEDITATION
"For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also." James 2:26
DEVOTIONAL THOUGHT
When you ask God for something, do you just sit back and do nothing and say, "Well, I'm going to show my faith by doing nothing." To the contrary, you will show your faith by doing something.
For faith without works is what? Dead! (see James 2:20) Do you want a house? Pray for it. Then say "Amen" with a hammer and saw. Do you want a wife? Pray for one. Then go shave, put on some cologne, learn some manners, and learn how to be thoughtful and loving.
ACTION POINT:
What have you been praying earnestly about the last week? What is your heart's desire? Ask the Holy Spirit to show you how you can put feet to that prayer. Then, walk the talk!
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As I lay in bed this morning, after I read the above, I began contemplating how I could apply this to my own life. I, wholeheartedly, agree with the point Dr. Rogers is making, but had a hard time applying it. I have had severe hormonal issues for many, many years. After the birth of my son nearly five years ago I began to feel even worse. The symptoms ruled (and still do to some extent) my life. No doctor could tell me what was wrong. After hours and hours of research on my own I found a doctor in Cincinnati that would listen to me and not tell me I was just depressed.
Through a series of saliva tests it was discovered that my body did not regulate it's hormones (estrogen, progesterone, plus many more). I was literally running on no hormones. My thyroid was a mess also. I was put on a bio Identical hormones in June of 2009. Boy did I have high hopes. Finally, I would feel better! Wrong. While there were some things that felt better as a whole I still felt lousy. The problem with hormones is they are very intricate to deal with. My compounding pharmacist, John, was a gift. He was so encouraging, but his job was sure tough. I was so young and had no baseline, but had the issues of a menopausal woman. I had so many hormones that were a mess that changing all of them at once caused even more issues. There was not one hormone that was at the ideal level. To say this was all very challenging is a grotesque understatement. I can honestly say this situation seemed hopeless many times. I have screamed at the Lord out of desperation and frustration. There was nothing I could do to change it.
After we moved to Georgia I was divinely lead to a new pharmacy. They have taken a new approach to my treatments and even uncovered another hormone in my thyroid that was nearly 0. We have all heard about the hormone cortisol. It is your stress hormone and apparently mine is very high. More symptoms have improved over the last few months and more layers have been uncovered. My new compounding pharmacist is wonderful also and his assistant is truly a treasure to me. Every time I drive past the pharmacy (it is on a usual route I drive) I pray that God guide Dawn and Austin's hand not only in my situation but that of others.
I would love to say all my issues have resolved, but they have not. I'm still on the journey of hormonal health and quite frankly, it stinks. I know trials build character and I told God recently that I have enough character. He disagrees...funny. Anyway, how does this relate to the daily devotion? Dr. Rogers talks about showing your faith by doing something and I get his point. For example, if you want your business to succeed you get off your rear and do something to help it succeed. Here's my thing...there is nothing I can do to change my situation right now. I've done the leg work on finding doctors, pharmacist, information, etc. Now I must wait. Now I must be still. Now I must trust. I can show my faith by waiting on the Lord.
Isaiah 40:31) But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
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Faith without Works Is Dead
BIBLE MEDITATION
"For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also." James 2:26
DEVOTIONAL THOUGHT
When you ask God for something, do you just sit back and do nothing and say, "Well, I'm going to show my faith by doing nothing." To the contrary, you will show your faith by doing something.
For faith without works is what? Dead! (see James 2:20) Do you want a house? Pray for it. Then say "Amen" with a hammer and saw. Do you want a wife? Pray for one. Then go shave, put on some cologne, learn some manners, and learn how to be thoughtful and loving.
ACTION POINT:
What have you been praying earnestly about the last week? What is your heart's desire? Ask the Holy Spirit to show you how you can put feet to that prayer. Then, walk the talk!
_________________________________________
As I lay in bed this morning, after I read the above, I began contemplating how I could apply this to my own life. I, wholeheartedly, agree with the point Dr. Rogers is making, but had a hard time applying it. I have had severe hormonal issues for many, many years. After the birth of my son nearly five years ago I began to feel even worse. The symptoms ruled (and still do to some extent) my life. No doctor could tell me what was wrong. After hours and hours of research on my own I found a doctor in Cincinnati that would listen to me and not tell me I was just depressed.
Through a series of saliva tests it was discovered that my body did not regulate it's hormones (estrogen, progesterone, plus many more). I was literally running on no hormones. My thyroid was a mess also. I was put on a bio Identical hormones in June of 2009. Boy did I have high hopes. Finally, I would feel better! Wrong. While there were some things that felt better as a whole I still felt lousy. The problem with hormones is they are very intricate to deal with. My compounding pharmacist, John, was a gift. He was so encouraging, but his job was sure tough. I was so young and had no baseline, but had the issues of a menopausal woman. I had so many hormones that were a mess that changing all of them at once caused even more issues. There was not one hormone that was at the ideal level. To say this was all very challenging is a grotesque understatement. I can honestly say this situation seemed hopeless many times. I have screamed at the Lord out of desperation and frustration. There was nothing I could do to change it.
After we moved to Georgia I was divinely lead to a new pharmacy. They have taken a new approach to my treatments and even uncovered another hormone in my thyroid that was nearly 0. We have all heard about the hormone cortisol. It is your stress hormone and apparently mine is very high. More symptoms have improved over the last few months and more layers have been uncovered. My new compounding pharmacist is wonderful also and his assistant is truly a treasure to me. Every time I drive past the pharmacy (it is on a usual route I drive) I pray that God guide Dawn and Austin's hand not only in my situation but that of others.
I would love to say all my issues have resolved, but they have not. I'm still on the journey of hormonal health and quite frankly, it stinks. I know trials build character and I told God recently that I have enough character. He disagrees...funny. Anyway, how does this relate to the daily devotion? Dr. Rogers talks about showing your faith by doing something and I get his point. For example, if you want your business to succeed you get off your rear and do something to help it succeed. Here's my thing...there is nothing I can do to change my situation right now. I've done the leg work on finding doctors, pharmacist, information, etc. Now I must wait. Now I must be still. Now I must trust. I can show my faith by waiting on the Lord.
Isaiah 40:31) But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Disappointment in the Last Hour
Today's writing is by Anthony
Compolo. Who? Yep, I didn't know either. He appears to be an interesting
guy. He is a present-day Christian speaker, sociologist, author and pastor. If
you are so inclined you can google him.
The Scripture reading is Matthew 26:16. It reads, "And from that moment on he began to look for an opportunity to betray Him."
When Jesus came to earth He became one of us. In many ways he gave up His power. He could have squished Judas right there, but He didn't. He had a mission to accomplish. The concept posed by Pastor Campola is this, "some think that Judas betrayed Jesus in order to force Him to play the power game and establish His rule." Did Judas just want Jesus to show His power? What? A weak and suffering Messiah?! No way! I do not know if I really believe Judas was trying to manipulate Jesus. There is no way to really know why Judas betrayed Jesus.
At the time most people thought the Messiah would overthrow the Roman rule and take a position of power ruling over Israel. Judas may have thought his association with this coming King would be of benefit. I have felt something similar at times. If I hang out with Jesus good things will happen to me. The Bible promises something different. It promises that in this world there will be trouble (John 16:33). Judas may have pictured this great overthrow. Oh the glory! Can you hear Judas saying, "I know Him! I know Him!" Yep, in my mind I heard Buddy the Elf.
As Jesus ministry marched on it became evident that Jesus had different plans. He hung out with, well, the 'unpopular' group. He had no money, slept outside much of the time, got hungry, and well, let's be honest...ruffled a lot of feathers. The washing of the disciples feet had to be shocking to Judas if he was expecting this powerful king to come.
John 13
2 The evening meal was in progress, and the devil had already prompted Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, to betray Jesus. 3 Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God; 4 so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. 5 After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples’ feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him.
6 He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, “Lord, are you going to wash my feet?”
7 Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”
8 “No,” said Peter, “you shall never wash my feet.”
Jesus answered, “Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.”
9 “Then, Lord,” Simon Peter replied, “not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!”
10 Jesus answered, “Those who have had a bath need only to wash their feet; their whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you.” 11 For he knew who was going to betray him, and that was why he said not every one was clean.
12 When he had finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place. “Do you understand what I have done for you?” he asked them.
13 “You call me ‘Teacher’ and ‘Lord,’ and rightly so, for that is what I am.
14 Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet.
I think of the application into my own life. In Day 51 the Lord laid the word commitment on my heart. How committed am I to Jesus when he does something I do not like or that causes me discomfort? Being on Jesus team involves many sacrifices and one is going against the crowd, not being mainstream, or being weird (plug for Journey's latest sermon series). It is possible that Jesus disappointed Judas. Where were the king-sized parties, the grandeur, the glory?! If I am honest with myself I will say I have been disappointed by God. As my mom slipped closer and closer to death my disappointment grew. Here was this woman who was larger than life. She lived and loved out loud. She was, well...Dinah.
She was stripped of all her dignity. She was bald, looked 15 years older than she really was, her teeth had broken off, her eyes hardly worked, her body ached, she had such buzzing in her ear that it sounded like a jet taking off inches from her head (because of the brain tumor), her body was swollen from the huge doses of steroids, and the list goes on. As I sit beside my mom in that bedroom (the very room my sister and I spent hours having heart-to-hearts with mom in) holding her limp hand watching her life on earth come to an end the disappointment overwhelmed me. As her morphine-induced stupor wore off and she screamed and writhed in pain the disappointment took my breath away. "God! Where are you?!" The exclamation point occurred when she went home to Paradise. What a day February 24th, 2011 was. The emotions are very raw now because just a year ago she was told there was no hope. There was nothing that could be done. Can you imagine her disappointment?! Dad's days were spent looking after her and making sure she got her pills every few hours.
Yep, disappointment, I know it well. Here's the thing, I don't know why Mom had to die an atrocious death. Satan would love if that disappointment pushed me from the Lord. He would love it if it caused me to betray Jesus, turn my back on Him. After all, He could have healed my mom in this life. What kind of God is this? I'm going to be different though, even weird. It is in the times of great disappointment where we must cling, white-knuckled, to our faith. You know what? It is also okay to desperately cry out to God in our pain. After the mortician came to her shell I sat beside her hospital bed, held her eyeglasses, and cried like I have never cried before...then I felt a little better. After that I got up and did the next thing.
Who knew I could learn so much from the 'sell-out?' I have learned that being committed to Jesus takes work and is never easy.
The Scripture reading is Matthew 26:16. It reads, "And from that moment on he began to look for an opportunity to betray Him."
When Jesus came to earth He became one of us. In many ways he gave up His power. He could have squished Judas right there, but He didn't. He had a mission to accomplish. The concept posed by Pastor Campola is this, "some think that Judas betrayed Jesus in order to force Him to play the power game and establish His rule." Did Judas just want Jesus to show His power? What? A weak and suffering Messiah?! No way! I do not know if I really believe Judas was trying to manipulate Jesus. There is no way to really know why Judas betrayed Jesus.
At the time most people thought the Messiah would overthrow the Roman rule and take a position of power ruling over Israel. Judas may have thought his association with this coming King would be of benefit. I have felt something similar at times. If I hang out with Jesus good things will happen to me. The Bible promises something different. It promises that in this world there will be trouble (John 16:33). Judas may have pictured this great overthrow. Oh the glory! Can you hear Judas saying, "I know Him! I know Him!" Yep, in my mind I heard Buddy the Elf.
As Jesus ministry marched on it became evident that Jesus had different plans. He hung out with, well, the 'unpopular' group. He had no money, slept outside much of the time, got hungry, and well, let's be honest...ruffled a lot of feathers. The washing of the disciples feet had to be shocking to Judas if he was expecting this powerful king to come.
John 13
Jesus Washes His Disciples’ Feet
1 It was just before the Passover Festival. Jesus knew that the hour had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he loved them to the end.2 The evening meal was in progress, and the devil had already prompted Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, to betray Jesus. 3 Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God; 4 so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. 5 After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples’ feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him.
6 He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, “Lord, are you going to wash my feet?”
7 Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”
8 “No,” said Peter, “you shall never wash my feet.”
Jesus answered, “Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.”
9 “Then, Lord,” Simon Peter replied, “not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!”
10 Jesus answered, “Those who have had a bath need only to wash their feet; their whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you.” 11 For he knew who was going to betray him, and that was why he said not every one was clean.
12 When he had finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place. “Do you understand what I have done for you?” he asked them.
13 “You call me ‘Teacher’ and ‘Lord,’ and rightly so, for that is what I am.
14 Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet.
I think of the application into my own life. In Day 51 the Lord laid the word commitment on my heart. How committed am I to Jesus when he does something I do not like or that causes me discomfort? Being on Jesus team involves many sacrifices and one is going against the crowd, not being mainstream, or being weird (plug for Journey's latest sermon series). It is possible that Jesus disappointed Judas. Where were the king-sized parties, the grandeur, the glory?! If I am honest with myself I will say I have been disappointed by God. As my mom slipped closer and closer to death my disappointment grew. Here was this woman who was larger than life. She lived and loved out loud. She was, well...Dinah.
She was stripped of all her dignity. She was bald, looked 15 years older than she really was, her teeth had broken off, her eyes hardly worked, her body ached, she had such buzzing in her ear that it sounded like a jet taking off inches from her head (because of the brain tumor), her body was swollen from the huge doses of steroids, and the list goes on. As I sit beside my mom in that bedroom (the very room my sister and I spent hours having heart-to-hearts with mom in) holding her limp hand watching her life on earth come to an end the disappointment overwhelmed me. As her morphine-induced stupor wore off and she screamed and writhed in pain the disappointment took my breath away. "God! Where are you?!" The exclamation point occurred when she went home to Paradise. What a day February 24th, 2011 was. The emotions are very raw now because just a year ago she was told there was no hope. There was nothing that could be done. Can you imagine her disappointment?! Dad's days were spent looking after her and making sure she got her pills every few hours.
Yep, disappointment, I know it well. Here's the thing, I don't know why Mom had to die an atrocious death. Satan would love if that disappointment pushed me from the Lord. He would love it if it caused me to betray Jesus, turn my back on Him. After all, He could have healed my mom in this life. What kind of God is this? I'm going to be different though, even weird. It is in the times of great disappointment where we must cling, white-knuckled, to our faith. You know what? It is also okay to desperately cry out to God in our pain. After the mortician came to her shell I sat beside her hospital bed, held her eyeglasses, and cried like I have never cried before...then I felt a little better. After that I got up and did the next thing.
Who knew I could learn so much from the 'sell-out?' I have learned that being committed to Jesus takes work and is never easy.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Act of Betrayal
Right now I'm going through a daily study called, Jesus: Experience the Power and Meaning of Christ. The premise of the study is to take a look at the most moving words ever written about the last days of Jesus life. My husband, Dave, has been on me to start blogging for years. Well, here it is. I'm humbled to think anyone would want to read this or even think seriously about the words I type. The downside of me just beginning to blog now is I'm already on Day 51 of this study. I'm now in the section about Jesus being betrayed. So far Jesus has entered Jerusalem, cleared the Temple, told parables and answered questions. He also warned against hypocrisy, told the future and has now been betrayed. All in a day's work, right?!
Each day has a new author which has been great because I've also learned more about these people. Did you know that St. Ambrose pegged the term, "when in Rome do as the Romans do." This was his answer to St. Augustine when asked if they should fast on Saturdays. Aaaaaanywho, that's just a little side note. On to my study...
Today's writing is from the Life Application Bible. This Bible helps understand difficult passages. You also gain great background information from this Bible. I use the Warren Wiersbe Commentary which provides the same thing. The verse used today is Matthew 26:14-15.
Matthew 26:14-15) Then Judas Iscariot, one of the twelve disciples, went to the leading priests and asked, "How much will you pay me to betray Jesus to you?" And they gave him thirty pieces of silver.
This verse blows my mind. Judas was willing to betray Jesus for 30 pieces of silver. So how much was this? After some research I've learned that it was about the price of a slave in those days or maybe a month's wages. There are many different ideas on this question. So now we have a new perspective into the saying, "he is a sell out!" The second Judas "sold out" Jesus prophesy in Exodus and Zechariah was fulfilled. The crazy thing is that no one is above this depravity...even me. Uh that is humbling. My mother used to remind me when I was feeling high and mighty that by the grace of God go I.
Even though Judas betrayed Jesus we are all responsible for the Cross. Satan meant the betrayal for harm, but God meant it for good. In Genesis 50:20 we read, "You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being down, the saving of many lives." For a wonderful story please read about the trials and tribulations of Joseph in Genesis.
The Life Application Bible explains that there are many views of Judas. There are feelings of hate, pity, graditude for ending Jesus earthly mission. How was it fair that one man bear such guilt asks the LAB (Life Application Bible)? That's an interesting question to ponder.
To me Judas appears to be a puppet of God in the play called life. I suppose no one forced Judas to make such a decision. I don't fully understand the whole 'free will' thing. I learned recently from Joyce Meyer...we ask why too much. He decided to betray Jesus. Now God knew he would. Afterall there was prophesy to this in Psalm 41:9 and in Zechariah. We can look to him as an example of what each and everyone of us is capable of. Jesus pegged Judas in John 17:12. Judas never referred to Jesus as Lord rather he called Him Rabi. Maybe he was in the camp that Jesus was a great teacher, but not the savior of the world. I don't know that for sure, but it's just an idea. Maybe Judas and Jesus weren't all that close. I learned that the disciples were listed in order of closeness to Jesus. I love the site www.gotquestions.org! Who was listed last? Yep, Judas. Other sources say the list goes more on a time line. Regardless, Judas is last. The last reason Judas betrayed Jesus...greed. Anyway, back to John 17:12. Judas was the one headed for destruction because was was never saved. Imagine that...an unsaved disciple. So why is it so shocking there are unsaved people sitting religiously in church pews?
My book asks another great question, "am I true follower of Jesus Christ or an uncommitted pretender?" Ouch. Maybe I didn't trade Jesus for money, but how many times have I chosen something over Him? How many times have I pretended to be someone else? Too many than I care to admit! When someone does not choose Jesus they are, in essence, betraying Him. Matthew 12:30 reads, "He who is not with me is against me, and he who does not gather with me scatters." Granted, I'm a follower of Jesus but I must be very careful to choose Him each and every second of the day. Like we studied today at Bible study (thanks Evans girls...love you all), in ALL my ways acknowledge Him and then I can look to Him to direct my paths and make them straight.
So I guess the lesson I gathered from today's study is this...how committed am I to Jesus?
Each day has a new author which has been great because I've also learned more about these people. Did you know that St. Ambrose pegged the term, "when in Rome do as the Romans do." This was his answer to St. Augustine when asked if they should fast on Saturdays. Aaaaaanywho, that's just a little side note. On to my study...
Today's writing is from the Life Application Bible. This Bible helps understand difficult passages. You also gain great background information from this Bible. I use the Warren Wiersbe Commentary which provides the same thing. The verse used today is Matthew 26:14-15.
Matthew 26:14-15) Then Judas Iscariot, one of the twelve disciples, went to the leading priests and asked, "How much will you pay me to betray Jesus to you?" And they gave him thirty pieces of silver.
This verse blows my mind. Judas was willing to betray Jesus for 30 pieces of silver. So how much was this? After some research I've learned that it was about the price of a slave in those days or maybe a month's wages. There are many different ideas on this question. So now we have a new perspective into the saying, "he is a sell out!" The second Judas "sold out" Jesus prophesy in Exodus and Zechariah was fulfilled. The crazy thing is that no one is above this depravity...even me. Uh that is humbling. My mother used to remind me when I was feeling high and mighty that by the grace of God go I.
Even though Judas betrayed Jesus we are all responsible for the Cross. Satan meant the betrayal for harm, but God meant it for good. In Genesis 50:20 we read, "You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being down, the saving of many lives." For a wonderful story please read about the trials and tribulations of Joseph in Genesis.
The Life Application Bible explains that there are many views of Judas. There are feelings of hate, pity, graditude for ending Jesus earthly mission. How was it fair that one man bear such guilt asks the LAB (Life Application Bible)? That's an interesting question to ponder.
To me Judas appears to be a puppet of God in the play called life. I suppose no one forced Judas to make such a decision. I don't fully understand the whole 'free will' thing. I learned recently from Joyce Meyer...we ask why too much. He decided to betray Jesus. Now God knew he would. Afterall there was prophesy to this in Psalm 41:9 and in Zechariah. We can look to him as an example of what each and everyone of us is capable of. Jesus pegged Judas in John 17:12. Judas never referred to Jesus as Lord rather he called Him Rabi. Maybe he was in the camp that Jesus was a great teacher, but not the savior of the world. I don't know that for sure, but it's just an idea. Maybe Judas and Jesus weren't all that close. I learned that the disciples were listed in order of closeness to Jesus. I love the site www.gotquestions.org! Who was listed last? Yep, Judas. Other sources say the list goes more on a time line. Regardless, Judas is last. The last reason Judas betrayed Jesus...greed. Anyway, back to John 17:12. Judas was the one headed for destruction because was was never saved. Imagine that...an unsaved disciple. So why is it so shocking there are unsaved people sitting religiously in church pews?
My book asks another great question, "am I true follower of Jesus Christ or an uncommitted pretender?" Ouch. Maybe I didn't trade Jesus for money, but how many times have I chosen something over Him? How many times have I pretended to be someone else? Too many than I care to admit! When someone does not choose Jesus they are, in essence, betraying Him. Matthew 12:30 reads, "He who is not with me is against me, and he who does not gather with me scatters." Granted, I'm a follower of Jesus but I must be very careful to choose Him each and every second of the day. Like we studied today at Bible study (thanks Evans girls...love you all), in ALL my ways acknowledge Him and then I can look to Him to direct my paths and make them straight.
So I guess the lesson I gathered from today's study is this...how committed am I to Jesus?
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