My desire is that my simple thoughts will speak to your spirit and be helpful in some unique way.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

I Am Back!

Wow, time flies!  It feels so great to be typing on my laptop.  Believe it or not it took this long to get a new power cord for my computer.  Don't get me started on stores having poor customer service!

I seriously can't believe my last entry was two months ago!  So much has happened since then.  Eli turned five and enjoyed a wonderful party at a local tumbling facility.  He has quite a haggle of little friends!  Everyone was so generous to him with unique and wonderful gifts.  Eli graduated from preschool and we enrolled him in kindergarten at Augusta Christian School.  I literally got choked up when I sent the money in for his school supply list.  I'm going to need to get a grip sooner rather than later!  One great Eli quote is this, "did you  know when you do good you sin against Satan?"  I will give you a minute to chew on that concept!

I turned 33 which is pretty wild.  My birthday was on a Monday and Dave took the day off.  While I was at the doctor (yes I saw my doctor on my birthday) Dave and Eli went shopping for party supplies at the Dollar Store.  They picked out party plates, streamers, hats, etc.  Dave also baked a wonderful whole wheat cake for me.  You may wonder who came to my party?  Well, it was myself, Dave, Eli, Floppy, and about 25 of Floppy's closest stuffed animal friends.  Eli picked out wonderful mixing bowls for me at Williams-Sonoma.  For my birthday dinner we got takeout at our favorite Asian restaurant.  Dave added candles to my cake which was great...except he put a "31."  My friends also sent great cards, flowers, some thoughtful gifts and a birthday lunch later in the month when it worked for everyone's schedules.  Love my Georgia girls!

Let's see what else happened to update you all...I had strep throat too.  I won't dwell on that or the fact that two weeks later I caught bronchitis.  Good times!  At one point during the strep I seriously considered throwing myself in front of a bus.  Dave and Eli took great care of me and I basically lived on steamed veggies and ice cream for a week.  Eli and Dave never caught anything!  We are all thankful for that!  My gynecologist advised me I could no longer eat ice cream.  It wasn't a huge deal because I don't eat desserts very often.  Like I said I did eat ice cream while I had strep because it soothed my throat.  The next visit to my wonderful doctor we walk in and the first thing Eli says is, "mommy ate ice cream."  We all had a good laugh!

Dave continues to take Procter and Gamble Augusta by storm.  He would not tell you this, but I know it is true.  How could he not when he has a wife pounding heaven's doors daily on his behalf.  I pray many things for Dave, but one particular request is that he will have blessings at work that even he does not understand.  He amazes me every single day and I love him with all my heart.

Probably the biggest and most emotional news is that I lost my beloved horse Sox.  In 1994 he was diagnosed with degenerative joint disease.  He never took a lame step for many years after this.  If you know Sox you know he was really hard on himself with his nasty pacing habit.  He wore his legs out.  We won Congress in 2001 and he had been turnout to pasture for about four years prior to this.  We brought back the ole man, but he needed lots of help with Bute and injections in about every joint he had.  God blessed us with one more wonderful year of showing.  I never appreciated him like I should have.  Again, if you know Sox you also know he was a very difficult horse to get along with.  He could be high strung and well...a bit nutty.  For many of our years together I didn't have the skills nor maturity to handle him.  As I grew up we bonded even more because I finally 'got' him.  He was an old school, bright copper quarter horse with lots of white who sported a huge fake tail at the shows and could beat the snot out of any Warmblood!

His arthritis had gotten significantly worse the past three to four years.  His left front leg was heavily distorted and he had lost all mobility in his knee and ankle.  The vet was afraid he would step wrong and literally break his leg in half.  The torque on the leg could also cause his shoulder to come out of joint.  So within two days I made the difficult decision to euthanize him.  Eli and I spent an afternoon out at the barn the day before his appointment with the vet.  Sox was so bright-eyed and gentle as ever.  Eli could literally walk around his legs.  Sox remembered how to bow and gave us one last poetic bow.  Eli and I brushed and scrubbed him to get him all cleaned up.  He was glistening.  The night before I was "this close" to calling the vet to cancel.  I didn't.  We went through with it.  I led him to the vet as she waited.  He just simply trusted me.  He was eating horse treats right up until the end.  I laid with him with several minutes after and just kissed his velvet-y nose.  I'm looking forward to the beautiful bracelet I'm having made out of hair from his tail.  He lived 28 wonderful years and I owned him for nearly 21 of those years.  I so badly wanted to call my mom for reassurance I was doing the right thing. 

I am also progressing on my hormonal journey and God is still working on me physically and spiritually.  I would love to say I woke up one morning and the issues were all gone, but that wouldn't be true.  The struggles are still present, but I'm two months closer than my last blog to feeling well.  God has blessed me with tremendous revelations in regards to my health situation.  They are much too personal to share at this time. 

In closing I will share with you my devotion from today. 

A man told a friend, "I know where God has put me, and I know God put me here, but I just wonder if He remembers where He put me."  Yes, God remembers!  He has not forgotten.  He is never late.  Don't rush God.  Don't think He has abandoned you because your prayers are not answered.  He will turn your midnight into a sunrise and your mourning into dancing.

This reading gives me such hope and encouragement.  The last two months had awesome moments and sad moments.  That's life though, right?  Today's blog was more of an update than an entry based on my personal studies, but hopefully it spoke to you somehow.  The following Bible verse relates to my daily devotion.  I hope it encourages you to remember He has not forgotten you nor your pain.

Psalm 56:8) You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle.  Are they not in Your book?


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