Honestly, I have no idea where the time goes! I think I say this at the beginning of EVERY blog...if I don't type it I certainly think it. It is crazy to think it is almost October and the weather here in Georgia is finally cooling off. Football season in the south is totally different than in the north. It is odd watching our beloved Bucks when it is 95 degrees outside!
The last month has been a complete whirlwind. Dave has been guiding the Augusta plant through some major changes and has been traveling a great deal. Eli and I make the most of it though and become total flakes when Dave is gone with staying up late and eating pancakes at 8:30 p.m. on the couch while we watch T.V.! Stay tuned for news on some big changes for the Limbird family.
I am still recovering from surgery. The actual physical aspect of surgery was quick to heal, but getting my hormones optimal has been much more difficult and trying. Dr. Vliet and I are making progress and I'm still beyond thankful for her compassion and expertise. There are symptoms that were bothersome before surgery that are completely gone now! Praise God. I realize now just how much pain and discomfort I was living in. There are other symptoms that seem to be hanging on longer and we continue to petition the Lord for His guiding hand. The last week has been a HUGE week for me. God, in His kindness, has revealed some helpful insight into some major metabolic issues I am having.
John 8:32) Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
I am a creature of habit and sliiiiiightly stubborn. I am also extremely determined and tend to be rather intense when I have a goal in front of me. I also try to not make excuses and can be hard on myself. Have you ever done something because you thought it was the right thing to do? Or have you continued to do something because you thought it was the right thing to do. When times get tough you buckle down and even go harder. That's me. For example, every time I go to the gym I'm total balls to the wall. For those of you who don't know, the origin of that statement is not vulgar. It has to do with the throttle and the knobs "balls" being pushed to the cockpit wall. Long story short, it means going all out. Aaaaaanywho, God revealed to me this week that what I have been doing to help myself has been actually hurting.
As the revelations began to unfold my initial reaction was doubt. I KNOW I am doing what I am supposed to be doing...even if it's not working and I'm sore and miserable. The next minute after I gave up my stubborn streak I literally cried out a thank You to my God. "Thank You God for this revelation" I kept saying to Him. As I contemplated the whole thing I began to see His mercy. I began to see that He was saving me from myself. Isn't that His nature though? Isn't that His ultimate plan. I am seeing a big picture here.
Often the truth is painful. Often it reveals just how limited we are. I think truth is revealed to every person in an intimate way. God knows exactly how to get to us, doesn't He? For me I truly thought I was doing the best thing for myself. I had no idea what else to do and I didn't know how to get out of it. I had backed myself into a corner. I had no answers. Through a series of events I began to see the answer come. I had been begging and pleading God for a miracle. God is never limited and can do anything He desires. If He knows a miracle is in order then poof, there it is. I have found though that He usually sets a series of events in order to allow the miracle to unfold (slooooooooooowly). When He shows us His truth it is a huge, giant relief. It is freeing and allows us to live an abundant life.
John 10:10) The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.
In summary, the truth allows us to live abundantly. I am so completely excited to be free from ideas and habits I had. Like I said, I am a creature of habit and I don't give them up easily, but when smacked with God's truth I can say "so long" with ease! In His love He has showed me how to get out of that corner I mentioned earlier. Embrace the truth, crave it, desire it, and seek it with all you've got. Freedom from ourselves is a glorious thing. An abundant life is also a glorious thing. On a side note, I have officially given up my old gym habits. Mark it down!
